Well I had my interview.
Walked in there fairly confident; left there feeling like I failed myself.
I always get way too nervous. And when I get nervous I babble. And when I babble I become confused. And when I get confused I get light-headed. And when I get light-headed I freak the heck out!
I am capable of the job though. It’s a little of what I do now…liaison between the business and IT….project management in some capacity. It sounds exciting and rewarding, but on the flip side it sounds scary and not at all like what I had envisioned myself to be doing in 10 years.
I won’t be too disappointed if I didn’t get the job. But honestly I do want the job. I want to make a new name for myself….I want more money….I want more responsibility…..I want more accountability. Strange to say that, but it’s true.
I should know more in two weeks. He interviewed someone already this week and has about two interviews next week. After that point, I would meet with his boss and go from there. So could be another two weeks.
I hate waiting.
I’m no good at it.
I’d rather know right now if I’m a good fit or not.
I will say when I got up to walk away from him, I was embarrassed. I had on super high heels (remember I’m 5’1) and with my heels on, I was taller than the guy. Opppssss Hope that didn’t ruin my chances!
Let the waiting game begin……
Friday, April 30, 2010
Well I had my interview.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I my friends, have an interview on Friday! I'm trying not to jinx myself by talking about it too much, but if I blog about it am I really talking too much about it??
It all happened so fast. On Thursday a dear work/blog/chatboard friend passed along my resume to a hiring manager in an area she is familiar with. And low and behold, the hiring manager must have seen something because yesterday he scheduled an interview with me!
The last time I interviewed in person was almost 8 years ago! I did a phone interview last year but those to me are so easy. I can hang up on them if the interview doesn't go the way I planned. HAHAHA But during a face to face I can't excuse myself to go to the bathroom and never return....kind of like a blind date. :)
I'm nervous because this is a step up for me. It's the next level in my career....it's more money, it's more responsibility, it's less technical than what I do now, and more project managerish. I'm stoked, freaked out, excited, and worried. Worried that I won't be what he's really looking for.
So keep those fingers crossed. The interview is scheduled for 3pm on Friday.....and I can tell you that right after the interview, LW and I are going to the nearest bar for a drink.
I'll keep you posted!
Sunday, April 25, 2010
I haven't had much time lately to make cards. I tried on Saturday to make cards, but it only turned into one card. HA That's what happens when life gets busy I suppose. I really have to sit down and come up with some boy card ideas because my best friend's youngest son has a birthday this week. Guess I better put my brain to work.
So here I'll leave with some of my creations over the last month or two. Enjoy!
Sunday, April 18, 2010
In March when Lauren was home we had family pictures taken by Britt. Britt did such an amazing job! We are so happy with the photos and had such a fun time taking them. And I know the girls had a great time as well! We had them taken at the Franklin Park Conservatory in Columbus. It's such a beautiful place that provided some really fun back grounds.
Below are some of my very favorite photos.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
I'm struggling to keep up lately. More so because I've been in training all week and then tomorrow I have a work offsite meeting all day. Fun! The new job gig is keeping me busy. For those that don't know, I've moved into a new role at work...again. I'm now the test lead for the area. YAY Loving it and it's keeping me busy.
Today would have been my Mom's 70th birthday. I wish I could say it gets easier...because it doesn't. You just learn to live with it even though there's a piece of your heart missing. I wanted to go to the cemetary today, but not sure I'll make it with my crazy schedule. I do plan on going this weekend though.
Lauren is officially coming home. We haven't picked a date yet, but she's applied to college and is now looking for jobs.
My dad is postponing his trip home this summer. He's having a lot of medical tests run so I will be going out his way to take him to his doctor's appointments. Since his stroke he has not been the same. He's forgetful, tired, etc. So it's best if I just go out his way to help him get to his appointments. Plus we are planning his funeral. Ugh not a task I want to take on, but we need to get it planned so that I knows what he wants. More than likely he'll come out to Ohio in late summer, early fall.
I have our family pictures back from the photographer. I'm planning on trying to load them this evening. They turned out amazing!!!
We've had some senior picture drama with Lauren, so we'll be doing a re-shoot when we're out there next month. She's so excited! Turns out the photographer is also from a town (Pickerington) close to our house, so he's excited to shoot someone from his hometown. I can't wait to see how they turn out. The set her mom had taken were horrible....her mom did no research and we were left to choose from very few pictures and none were good. Lauren is so much more beautiful than the original photographer captured on camera. She deserves better so we're giving it to her. I can't wait to share them!!!
For now that's about it....I'm sorry I'm behind on blog reading but I do hope to get caught up over the weekend. LW will be at basketball camp, so I'll have a lot of free, alone time. I can't wait!
Friday, April 9, 2010
I feel like I’m living in the fast lane and can’t get out of it!
In May we’ll be heading to Arizona to see Lauren graduate from high-school. An exciting, amazing time for our family.
Shortly after Lauren graduates we’ll make a quick trip over to Nevada to check in on my Dad.
And then all hell breaks loose!!
Lauren will be home sometime after her graduation in late May....permanently. She has decided to attend college in Ohio…..Ohio University to be exact. Since she has missed the deadline to apply for the fall semester, she will be starting at the branch and then transferring to the main campus, hopefully by winter quarter. In the mean time, she is looking for summer jobs.
Once she’s settled in at home, Kassidy will most likely be out of school and ready to stay the summer with us starting in June. LW is still working out arrangements to have Kassidy this summer. It would be awesome to have the girls there all of the time. It will feel like a real family.
After we get Kassidy settled in (hopefully; cross your fingers!), then comes my Dad for 5 weeks, starting in July!!!
Holy cow!!! Can you say “packed house?” We have a tiny 1,800 sq ft home…three bedrooms. And with Lauren home, all of the bedrooms will be taken. So my poor father will have to shack up in the den on a blow up mattress. Thankfully he’ll be staying only part time with us. I have a younger brother with three children, so I’m certain he will spend quite a bit of time with them.
It’s funny how just two years ago I was living the single life, in my tiny house, which at the time felt kind of huge and lonely. And now there will be laughter and busyness in mass abundance. I’m slightly overwhelmed but thankful we have a cleaning lady and a lawn mowing company, so we’ll get to spend time together as a family and I won’t feel pressed to have to keep up with things as much.
I’m looking forward to this summer. I know there will be challenges ahead but if we focus as a family we can make it through it. I’m excited to have my girls home, under one roof. I’m excited for the birthdays and holidays ahead. I’m excited to be able to provide them with a happy, healthy home. I know it won’t be easy, and personally I’m struggling right now with Kassidy, but we’ll make it. It will just take a little time and a lot of nurturing.
Stay tuned for some amazing summer updates!!!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Do you ever look back and wonder what you could have done differently in regards to your career? Are you where you thought you would be?
I think often about some of the choices I made, and if I had to do it all over again, I would change a lot in terms of my career path. Don’t get me wrong…I love what I do, I’m paid well, and I have a great work family. But I often think about where I would be had I gone straight to college after high school to pursue my dream.
My dream was to become a forensic scientist. For as long as I can remember I have wanted to find out why and how people died and to help piece together murder mystery puzzles. Weird I know. But I know I would have been darn good at it.
Before I decided I wanted to be a scientist, which clearly never happened, I had wanted to be the next Barbara Walters. I loved the news. I loved reporting my findings on just about anything. I loved thinking I could make a difference. I even took a class in school called Television Production. I think that’s when I decided I didn’t want to be on TV, I’d rather be a scientist.
Last night as I’m sitting there on FB I’m scrolling through some photos of my high school friends from my hometown of Capitan, New Mexico. There were roughly 30 of us in our grade (I left the summer of my junior year). One is now an accomplished surgeon in San Fransisco. One is a scientist for NASA. One is the vice president of overseas call centers. Several are teachers. One is a well established lawyer in Arizona. One took over his father’s construction company. One was a professional bull rider. One is a state park ranger. Basically most everyone has some amazing career to brag about. Me? I’m just an IT Specialist working for a large insurance company (who by the way has the stupidest commercial on TV right now).
As LW would say, don’t get it twisted…..I’m blessed to have a job. And I’d like to think I’m successful. I just feel I could have done more with my life had I choosen a career I was in love with. Obviously I’m good at what I do because I have been working with the PeopleSoft system for 15 years now but that will never replace how badly I once had wanted to be a scientist.
Some say I should go back to school. Honestly, by the time I’d finish I’d be in my 40’s and LW will be retired (he’s 8 years older) so I’ll be wanting to slowly get to retirement myself, because according to LW, we ARE retiring at 55. God I love that man.
So tell me…are you pursing the career you had always dreamed of? Or did you settle like I did.
Monday, April 5, 2010
I've started running (jogging, walking fast). Sunday was day two of my new found journey. There's so much freedom when you strap on a pair of running shoes, an ipod loaded with your favorite tunes and you head out wondering where your legs will take you. I wish I could tell you I ran the whole time, but I'm not that good. My legs are short so I tire easily. But I have managed to keep a good pace.
Saturday I ran 11:06 minute miles and Sunday I ran 10:46 (I think) minute miles. Impressive when you consider I run as fast as I can walk! HA Both days I traveled over 3.5 miles.
As soon as I got in from my run yesterday I easily could have turned around and gone back out again. But I know I need to keep myself from getting injured so I stayed put....for now.
Tonight I plan to go on a long bike ride since I need to give my running legs a bit of a break. I plan to go about 5 miles tonight.
This running stuff isn't so bad. However ask me again in another month when I've hopefully made it to 5/6 miles! That's when I'm sure I'll start cursing like a sailor.
So far this journey isn't so bad. It's definately helped me to clear my head and find some peace with the issues I have in my life. There's something so powerful about doing something you never thought you could do.
Anything is possible. You just have to believe it.