Friday, February 26, 2010

My biggest little fan.

Not to be out done by his brother, I must say that Boomer, my youngest cat, has been so loving since I have been home. It's like he senses something is wrong with me. He snuggles up with me constantly and anytime I have the water works going, he's on my lap meowing and purring. Our pets just know when we need a little love.

For that I am grateful.

So here's my other little man....Boomer.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Something that makes me happy!

Since I've been home recovering I've been addicted to my heating pad. At first I used it alot because my back hurt. My incision hurt like crazy so I was walking all slumped over. But now I just use it to warm me up when I don't have a hot flash coming on....because it is still WINTER and it's still pretty cold in Ohio.

But one day I got up from my seat, only to return to this:


My little Boo Boo (Boots), sneaking some warmth from the heating pad. In all of the years that I have used a heating pad, I have never seen him sneak up against it. I thought for sure he would think it's the worst thing in the world and be afraid of it. Well wouldn't you know, now that he knows what it is, if I even get up for a second and he's awake, he makes a bee-line for it.

That makes me smile.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Menopausal

No one tells you that the instant you have a hysterectomy, how truly miserable you will be emotionally once you heal from the incision.

I feel pretty good physically. I'm getting around good. I'm driving. I'm walking better. I still struggle to find pants that fit without hit my incision site the wrong way. Thank goodness for sweat pants! I've lived in them for the last five weeks.

But emotionally I am struggling and I have ZERO reason to struggle. I've got great friends and family. And I'm surrounded by happy things and fortunate enough that once I heal physically, that I have nothing else wrong with me. But I hurt inside emotionally.

I cried for two hours on Sunday because I wanted so badly to go to card club but I didn't have the energy.

I cry because I can't sleep at night because I'm hot or cold. While the flashes have gotten better, I'm no longer on pain medicine that will knock me out at night when I sleep. So now I suffer.

I cry because I'm stuck home. We are down to one car at the moment and LW has to go to work...so I sit her surrounded by the same four walls day in and day out. I suppose it's a good thing because I would probably shop my tail off, which is something I shouldn't be doing.

I cry because I want to be outside, walking, running...anything, but I can't. There's snow everywhere!!!

I'm so tired of the emotional up and down. I want it to stop NOW!

I know things will get better once I can get out and get back to my normal routine.

I return to work next week on Thursday. I'm nervous and excited. I miss my friends at work, I miss feeling important, I miss doing something positive. Hopefully after my doctor appointment on Tuesday I'll be able to get back to working out. I actually enjoy the freedom that comes with working out...did I say that out loud?

Five weeks down...one week to go. Until next time.....

Monday, February 22, 2010

Boots

This is a picture of my oldest cat Boots.

If you click on the picture you will see his tiny pink tongue sticking out trying to lick the snow. I had opened the back door so he could stick his little nose out. He loves being outside even though we don't let him out, he loves the fresh air through the screen, but with winter it's hard to get the cats fresh air so sometimes in the winter, for just a few seconds I will open the door for them. It makes the cats so happy!

It's funny how a little furry creature can make a down day better.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Mother

LW has an amazing mother.

Eduated.

Passionate.

Thoughtful.

Giving.

Beautiful.



Here she is posing with her husband, LW's step father, Mr. Johnny. Who is also an amazing, thoughtful man.

I had the privilage of attending the Black History Awareness Breakfast where LW's mother received an educators award for her contribution to her community long after she was retired from teaching.



I have learned so much from LW's mother. She preaches the need for an education and is proud that all four of her children have received college educations, and continuting eduation. Her passion for education is important and it's even more important to her to spread the word to young black Americans, that you can do it. So for her efforts in reaching out to the community and offering tutoring services, and the like, she was praised and presented with an educators award.

We were so happy to be witness to such an amazing time in her life. The tears were endless. We are all proud of her. And I am honored to be a part of her family.

She makes me want to be a better person....to reach out to my community. She is a strong, passionate woman who works tirelessly at food banks, shelters for battered women, schools and church activities...she never rests. And she never complains. She does it because she loves it. She would spend her last penny supporting her family and her community.

She very much deserves this award.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Happy

Awwwww my fellow Nestie, friend and blogger Jill at Happy Hopefuls nominated me for a Happy 101 award. AH I love it. Thanks Jill!!!!



How does this work?

1. Copy and paste the award OR save and attached the award to your blog

2. Link to the person who sent it to you

3. List 10 things that make you happy

4. Pass the award on to other bloggers, visit their blog, and let them know.

10 Things That Make Me Happy:

1. Texts, emails and FB messages from my friends during the day while I have been off from work. They have no idea how much I need that communication!

2. My cats because they have been so snuggly while I've been home.

3. My heating pad

4. Watching LW and Kassidy tickle each other and chase each other around the house to do so.

5. Mexican food

6. Crafting with Kassidy

7. Chocolate milk shakes

8. Reading a good book when it's snowy and cold out.

9. The thought of working out as soon as my doctor releases me.

10. Reading and re-reading the Valentine's Day card that LW gave me. He's so not a mushy man, but those words on that card mean everything to me.

And, now for the nominees:


1. Liz, at Martelle-isms, for always crafting the perfect card and for always making me smile! I have been the receipient of several of her cards and crafts. AMAZING! And so thoughtful!!!

2. Julie, at 47 and Starting Over, for always making me laugh until I have peed my pants. Seriously the funniest person I know! And the one who will always have my back in a bar fight.

3. Simone, at Chocolate Covered Daydreams, for reminding me to stay grounded. Simone is so thoughtful and inspiring.

4. Linda, at Linda Lou, Live from Las Vegas, for making me laugh every single day. And for always reminding me why I love and miss the desert!

5. Crystal, at SimplyCDD, for becoming one of my dearest and bestest friends ever. She makes me laugh endlessly!!!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

She's coming home!!!

Lauren texted me last night:

"U think dad would fly me out there for my spring break?"

Me: "Not sure. You should ask dad. :)"

Lauren: "I was just wondering cause I don't wanna be stuck here. It's boring without my true family."

Me: "Look up flights and then call dad."

So she found the flights, called daddy and daddy is flying her home for spring break! She'll be here March 12th through March 19th.

I AM BEYOND EXCITED!!! I have yet to meet Lauren. The last time she was in Ohio, LW and I were newly dating and he didn't want to introduce us until he was more serious. Good dad!

So now she'll be home and I can't wait to wrap my arms around her and tell her in person how much I love her and how very proud I am of her. She's such a beautiful, thoughtful child.

Right now I'm working on arranging a photography session for the four of us. I can't wait to have our true family picture taken. It makes me so teary eyed to think that we will all be together soon. Even though I never gave birth to those children, I can't tell you how much I really love them. There are many days when I wish they were mine. But none the less, I am one lucky girl.

We're keeping it a surprise from Kassidy though. I can't wait to see her little face light up as soon as she sees her. Kassidy misses Lauren like crazy. And of course we were all counting down the days until we saw Lauren graduate in May. So I thankful, we get more time together this year....at home.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

College Acceptance

It's official! Lauren was accepted to attend Grand Canyon University in Arizona this fall. While we are over joyed with happiness that Lauren will be off to college this fall, it saddens us that she will not be coming home to attend college. We had high hopes that she would be attending Ohio State this fall, as she had mentioned coming home.

But none the less, we are blessed and happy and excited to watch Lauren enter this new phase of her life. Last we heard she was entering into the nursing program.

We love you Lauren. And we are so very proud of you!

Monday, February 8, 2010

Cards and Snow!

Before my surgery I sat down and hand made all of my Valentine's Day cards this year. I made cards for Kassidy, Lauren, LW, my dad, LW's mom and since my sister's wedding anniversary is on Valentine's Day, I made her an anniversary card.

I really love how they all turned out! I only wish every card I made had this kind of touch to them.








So for those of you that do celebrate, "Happy Valentine's Day". We really don't celebrate however this year I am asking that LW take Kassidy and I to lunch. We went out yesterday and got the girls a little something from Bath and Body Works as every little girl loves that stuff! I ended up getting LW an OSU sweatshirt and OSU nylon jog pants since he just loves being comfy.

So on to the snow....

Last Friday Ohio got a good old fashioned snow fall!

Here is a picture taken out back of my house. Look at the snow blowing side ways!


And here is LW shoveling in his dress clothes and bad tennis shoes. Poor guy, left work early to beat the bad drivers home. HA


And of course it snowed a little more over night, so the next morning LW had to shovel the driveway again. God I love that man! Ever since we had to fire our plow company for damaging our garage door, LW has had to take over duty. And since I can't help out because of my surgery, he's faced to do it alone. Usually I don't mind. But this year is out for me.




Tuesday and Wednesday we are suppose to get a lot more snow in Ohio...ah good times. Personally I can't wait. But then again I get to sit on my hind end and enjoy it while others are out driving in and shoveling it.

Happy Snow Days!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Over the ovaries.

Everyone knows I had a full hysterectomy two weeks ago yesterday. I'm over being sad about it. As I can't change it. My ovaries are in my past. My future is full of running, crafting and respecting my body.

But yesterday something very bad happened.

My sister, who was the last of us to have all of her female parts intack, lost an ovary to emergency surgery. I guess her ovary twisted and swelled up. Over night it went from a baseball size mass to the size of a brick, if not bigger.

I'm unable to be with her, as I can't drive and my family doesn't want to drag me all over the hospital. I was suppose to go last night to see her, but everyone is tip toeing around me still.

See this sister (along with my other sister), never acknowledged my surgery and never called me after she found out I had surgery. I don't know about you, but when you lose all of your female organs, a call from your sister would be helpful in the recovery process. I feel so alone sometimes and a call from my sisters would have meant the world to me. So I was going to be the bigger of the three of us girls, and go see my sister because I KNOW how much pain she is in, and I can offer some advice because I have learned some tricks in the past two weeks on how to live with the stitches and the pain.

So now the goal is to go see her tomorrow. My oldest sister said she would take me to the hospital. Not that LW wouldn't but I'd rather him not take me...I'd rather do this with my sister if I can.

My sister is fine though. She's 46 and had zero intentions of having any more children. Her son is 20 and that's enough for her. And the doctors do not think the mass was cancerous, which is great news.

It's just so odd that two weeks after I have my ovaries removed, my sister, who showed zero compassion toward me, had an ovary removed. Karma? Or back luck?