Monday, November 30, 2009

25 Days of Christmas

I got this from my fellow blogger, Simone. Stop by and pay her a visit. You're guaranteed to love her!

(1) What is your favorite Christmas movie?

Christmas Vacation! Hands down the best movie ever. I watch it every year on Christmas Eve. The very first time I saw it was with my Mom, so more so now it has special meaning to me.

(2) What is your LEAST favorite Christmas movie?

I'm not sure I really have a least favorite. Probably some of those random cartoons that make no sense.

(3) What is your favorite Christmas song?

O Holy Night sung by Celin Dion. I cry every time I hear it. It's my Dad's favorite song and it makes me miss him so much (he lives in Nevada). My dad has such a beautiful voice and I use to love to listen to him sing this song at church.

(4) What Christmas song(s) drives you crazy?

The Tweleve Days of Christmas. I can't stand it!!!!

(5) What is your favorite Christmas drink? (i.e. egg nog, hot chocolate)

Peppermint hot chocolate although I do drink it year round.

(6) What is your favorite Christmas memory?

The year my family was adopted by a group of people. They are the very reason why I give back to my community. It was strangers who gave us joy that year. Times were tough...we had no electricity and no running water at various times that year. The kindness of strangers allowed my parents to give us the most special Christmas of them all.

(7) What is the best toy/gift you've received on Christmas?

My parents saved like crazy to buy me a Cabbage Patch doll the year they came out. We had no money and that was the only thing I had ever wanted. My parents worked hard to be able to get me that doll.

(8) What is the worst toy/gift you've received on Christmas?

Flannel sheets by an ex-boyfriend. Really?

(9) What do you LOVE about the holidays?

I love helping people. I love giving to my community and I love the togetherness with family it helps create.

(10) What annoys you about the holidays?

People who think that Christmas is about how big of a present you get, or how much you spend. Christmas really should be less about gifts and more about Jesus and his birth. So many people forget that he is the reason for the season. And it really irks me the most when people write x-mas. Why is it so hard to write Christ???

(11) Do you prefer star or angel on top of a Christmas tree? Or something else?

A Boyds Bear angel.

(12) What is your family favorite recipe at Christmas?

We don't have one!

(13) Are you a Grinch or a Who at Christmastime?

I'm very much a Who. I wish people would stop buying gifts and going broke and just enjoy the season. The lights, the music, your family. Why must it be about a fancy car, or jewelry or video games?

(14) Christmas light displays - Love them or Hate them?

Love them. I love the beauty!

(15) Santas at the mall - Fun times or Creepy?

Creepy!! OMG I can't stand Santas at the mall. My parents did that to me once and I swore if I ever had kids they would not sit on that nasty man's lap!!! Seriously, do you know where that Santa has been?

(16) Christmas cards - do you send them, yes or no?

Yes and this year I made all 61 on them by HAND!

(17) What is the best thing about Christmas, in your opinion?

Church on Christmas Eve with my family. Nothing is more special then celebrating Jesus' birth.

(18) What is the worst thing about Christmas?

Putting up all of the decorations. It takes too long! LOL

(19) When do you put the tree up and take it down?

Put it up the day after Thanksgiving and take it down the day after Christmas.

(20) Out of the 12 days of Christmas, which day and item would you want your truelove to give to you?

None. I hate the 12 days of Christmas!

(21) Why do you think that Grandma got run over by a reindeer?

Because the reindeer weren't paying attention. HA HA Who knows but granny should get a move on it!

(22) Who is your favorite reindeer?

All of them. It takes team work to pull a sleigh!

(23) Do you believe in Santa Claus?

I believe in the spirit of Christmas, whether that be Santa or not. I believe in the magic of it all.

(24) What is your favorite smell at Christmastime?

Pine trees, sugar cookies, and that red plant that I can't think of at the moment!

(25) What would make you happy at Christmas this year?

Having one more Christmas with my Mom. She never got to meet LW or Kassidy and it makes me terribly sad she's not with us to see how happy I am.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Off for a few days.

So much going on with Thanksgiving that I will be taking a few days off from blogging or reading blogs (sorry).

I have 26 people to my house on Thanksgiving so I have to get some cleaning and cooking accomplished.

Been busy though. I got my hair chopped off today. Holy cow is it short, but it's the best haircut I have ever had. I'll post Thankgiving pics of it!

Talked to my Dad - he's admitted to me he is having trouble remembering things since his stroke (May 2008). So I need to make an emergency trip out (he's in Nevada I'm in Ohio) after the holidays to help him get the rest of his life in order before he is at a point that he can't communicate with me. I'm crushed. Saddened. Frustrated. But I will help him the best I can.

On a brighter note, LW and I are taking Kassidy to see the Rockettes on Weds. I'm so excited for that. It will be nice to all be together again. This every other weekend thing with her is tough. We love being with her all of the time.

I hope everyone has a blessed Thanksgiving.

I'm thankful for so many things, but the most important thing I am thankful for is LW. He (and his family) has taught me so much about myself. It's wonderful being in love.

Happy Thanksgiving friends!

Thursday, November 19, 2009


If you don't know about my CEM mission (Cricut earning mission), then I must tell you! My friend Crystal and I started this project late summer I believe, where we would sell things to earn money to purchse our Cricut. Both of us cleaned out our homes to sell unwanted/unused items and of course Miss Crystal handmade some items too (check out her blog to see what she sells). I love her stuff!

Anyway, as luck would have it, I had sold some items and then the pot ran dry. No one was buying anything. At that point I had $192 put aside (however Crystal doesn't know this but I spent $81 of that stash because I didn't have cash on me a few days and I needed it because I just couldn't get to the bank - opps - but I've documented that I spent it and I owe it back to myself).

So last night LW handed me $200 in cash to complete the mission. BUT before you say, "You didn't earn it!", let me tell you this, I have earned EVERY penny of that $200 for driving his hiney all over town. See LW is without a car at the moment (very long story) so since AUGUST 16th we have been using my car only (thankfully we work together in the same building). So please, tell me I rightfully earned that money? I feel like I did because I have had to give up nights out with girlfriends (sorry I missed your birthday party Emily!), going to the gym, all so he could take my car and travel to basketball games that he was officiating. And some of those games were out of state so that meant that I spent Saturdays and Sundays home alone with no car and no where to go. In my mind, I earned that money!!!

The CEM has come to an end as of November 15th. That was our cut off. What that means was that if we didn't earn enough by that date that we would put the rest in the pot ourselves and just out right buy it. So that my friends is what is happening. On black Friday Crystal and I are heading to a local store to purchase it on sale (or so the BFA tells us!).

Wish us luck that we can find it on sale. Although I have enough to buy it now, I would sure like to buy it on sale and purchase a few cartridges with that money.

And just incase you don't know what a Cricut here.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Mom Like

Saturday night Kassidy had a headache so I had to run to Target (of course right? because why would I go to Meijer next door and just get what I NEED?) to get her some kiddy motrin. While I was there we ended up with multi-vitamins for her and kiddy cough medicine because it is that time of year. I swear I felt like a new Mom standing in that aisle. What do I get? Will it be strong enough for her? Will it be too strong for her? Will she get a rash? Will it make her sick? OMG I had no idea. I'm parenting someone else's child who is living with me every other weekend and I need to make darn sure I'm taking the best care of her.

It was in that moment that I wish I could have called my Mom. But I stood there and read every label to make sure I was buying age appropriate medicine.

Kassidy was so excited. Really? Over medicine??? She said she has friends who take multi-vitamins but that she never has. I told her that will change at our house. We have a healthy household and I intend to try to keep it that way.

After the medicine aisle we picked out her Christmas PJ's. See in my house you get new PJ's every Christmas that you wear Christmas Eve. Kass is not suppose to be with us on Christmas Eve so I went ahead and got her PJ's anyway (we are mailing Lauren a set too!) for her to wear on Christmas night at our house (she'll be opening a special gift that night too).

So on the way home from Target Kassidy asked me if she could stay at our house on Christmas night. She said she loves how fun I am making the holiday for her and she loves the idea of waking up in her new PJ's. I told her I'd love to have her stay but that she will have to talk to her Mom and her Dad. Once I told LW he got so excited. So I'm crossing my fingers she'll be spending Christmas Eve night with us. Poor little thing has it all worked out in her head. She told me she could spend Christmas Eve with her Mom's family and that we could pick her up late Christmas Eve night after she has opened presents with her Mom and her Mom's family. Then she could get up Christmas morning and open presents at our house and then of course we'll head to LW's Mom for Christmas dinner. It was so funny how she had this all worked out. Little girl has been planning this for sometime I'm sure!

Keep your fingers crossed. It would be so fun to have her there on Christmas morning. I've never had someone wake me up and say "Santa has been here". Although Kassidy doesn't believe, I have told her to believe in the magic of the day. She doesn't have to believe in Santa but she should believe in Jesus and the beauty of celebrating such a wonderful day with family and friends. She told me she would have me up at 5am opening presents! I feel a nap coming on.

More to come on this I'm sure.

Monday, November 16, 2009

I found the reason.

On Saturday I found the reason why LW and I are suppose to be together. I don't believe in chance happenings in life. I believe that everything happens for a reason and I also believe that when we meet the love of our lives, we eventually know why we were suppose to meet.

For me, it was to find LW's Mom. I see my Mom through her.

Saturday LW had a basketball game in his home town of Springfield. So Kassidy and I piled in the car and headed to his Mom's. LW dropped us off at his Mom's and then he headed to the game early. Kassidy of course ran upstairs to see her cousin Michael (LW's Mom was babysitting him) so I headed to the basement to hang out with LW's Mom and stepdad. While in the basement I started talking with LW's Mom and the feeling just came over me. Every thing she did or said reminded me of my Mom. She dresses like my Mom, she praises our God like my Mom, she speaks of her past and her childhood just like my Mom, she put her Sunday best make up on and pearls on just like my Mom, the angels are ever flowing in her house, just like how they were in my Mom's house. It was so unbelieveable and virtually impossible to discribe.

I truly believe I was meant to meet LW so that I can always be reminded of my Mom (not that I would forget, but the physical presence is amazing). Just before we ended the conversation and had to leave to go watch LW, she told me how wonderful it was talking to me and getting to know me. Heck, she even fist bumped me in the car when I was telling her how I got school supplies for Kassidy on clearance after the school season had started. :-)

I told LW last night that in this life we have a twin. We may not physically look like that person, but we hold the same characteristics as that person. I have found my Mom's twin. While it does make me terribly sad that these two women will never meet on this Earth, I'm happy to know that while LW's Mom is here with us, I can forever be reminded of my Mom's love.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Family Photo Shoot

My friend Erin, who owns her own photography studio, photographed us back in October. I hate how I look, but Kassidy and LW look so cute. Why is it we are always so critical of ourselves? :)



Sunday I took Kassidy to the pond over by our house for a quick photo shoot. While we had family photos last month (stay tuned I will post those this week as well!), I decided to take some outdoor shots of Kassidy since she just recently got her first hair cut in FOREVER.

She made for a great model and was more than willing to let me take her picture!


The happenings around our house.

I'm gonna make this short and sweet since I don't have lots of time to be posting this at work! HAH HA HA HA

1. Lauren made the varsity basketball team! I knew she would. She's too much like her daddy.

2. Kassidy thinks I'm the greatest person since my friend Crystal cut her hair. She's been in dire need of a haircut. She can't stop talking about it or playing with her hair.

3. Kassidy picked out pictures from our Disney trip to scrapbook. She picked some of me alone, some of me and LW and some of me and her. She loves me!

4. I went to pick the photos to print and put in our Mickey Mouse frame and showed her the ones I picked: one of her and daddy, one of me and LW and then I couldn't decide on another one of her and her dad and his family. So what did she say? "Why don't you put one of just the three of us?" Really, she likes me!

5. Kassidy wants me to take her to see New Moon in the theaters. Aw

6. We had to drop off Kassidy at home today (before school) since she stayed last night with us because her Mom was at a concert late. While waiting on Kassidy to get out of the car and run up to the house, out walks Kassidy's Mom's boyfriend. OMG really? She traded LW in for THAT! WTF? There is a HUGE night and day difference. The guy is shorter. The guy is WAY rounder. The guy is white. The guy looks like Archie Bunker. OH-MY-GAWD. She traded down...way down. I figure if you're gonna cheat on your boyfriend (Kassidy's parents were never married but dated for something like 10 years)he better be hot, fantastic in bed and some kind of dream guy. Archie Bunker? Really? EW

7. I had a great time making cards this weekend. I attempted my Christmas cards. Not bad! I'm happy I'm learning a new craft. I scrapbooked for so many years and never had time for cards. While they are the same, they are very different, so it's been a challenge to learn but I'm getting the hang of it. I made my Christmas cards two years ago, but they are nothing like these ones! WOOT WOOT

8. My first husband's niece (she's now 16-17) found me on FB and asked me to friend her. It's so funny to watch the kids grow up. My first ex husband and I have a great relationship. I haven't seen him since my Mom died (he came to the funeral and the brunch). It's funny to get all caught up with the family. He's a great guy. We didn't work as partners, but we always were great friends. So it's nice to find my old family. I was with my exhusband for 11 years - 8 years married, 3 years dating.

9. Since my friend Crystal cut Kassidy's hair this weekend, I took Kass out to the pond in my development to take pictures. OMG I think they turned out great. I'll post those pictures along with the family pictures we had taken with my friend Erin back in October. I'm thinking I'm not too bad at this photography thing!

Okay back to work. I have to find an outline of a sympathy card to make for LW's best friend's wife's father. He passed away this weekend. Saddly she lost her Mom to lung cancer 7 years ago.

Oh and one last thing! Way to go Colleen!!! Congrats Irondiva. LW and I are so proud of you. Love to both you and Tom!

Friday, November 6, 2009

Baby Over Load

So it seems since I've decided to go forward with my hysterectomy that EVERYONE is either having their baby, about to have their baby or just announced that they are pregnant. It's like when you're single and all of your friends are either getting married, are married or found the greatest boyfriend ever (I remember those days!).

This weekend I have double baby over load. I will be attending a baby shower. Not ready for it emotionally, but you have to move forward when life throws you lemons. You gotta know how to make that lemonaide. And of course our neighbor just gave birth to baby number two, so we must stop over and coo at the baby and drop off gifts this weekend.

Does it hurt? You bet. Will I cry when I leave both events? Sure will. Will I survive? Yes because that's all one can do in my situation. Do I want people to feel sorry for me? Never. I just need to vent and blogging is a great place for that.

But I'm happy. I'm happy that Riley (she's 5 and cute as a button!) got a little brother (Welcome Wyatt - we love you!). And I'm happy that Staci is a few short weeks away from brining her baby girl into the world.

There IS a reason for this. While I'm still searching for that reason I can only think it has something to do with being there for Kassidy and Lauren. I couldn't have asked for two more beautiful, special girls in my life. And I look forward to being their step-mom one day. So for now that has to be enough. And it will be once I let myself.

Life is good. I am blessed. And soon I will be feeling so good! The whole purpose of the surgery is to remove the disease inside of me. For that moment, I cannot wait!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

What's your holiday tradition?

Lately I've been thinking....I'm still blessed even though I don't have my own children. I have LW and those two beautiful daughters of his. And that will be enough.

So with that said, I've been thinking about finding a holiday tradition that I can weave into our tiny little family. The only real tradition I have is on Christmas Eve I get together with my family. We have dinner, exchange presents and we go to my Mom's church. After church (church slacked off when my Mom was starting to get sick) I have always come home and watched Christmas Vacation. But now I need to find a tradition for Christmas with LW and Kassidy (and with Lauren when she comes home next year).

Currently on Christmas the only tradition I have had is to make pancakes after we open presents. But I'm looking for something fun and that can stay in our family for years to come.

What are your family traditions at Christmas time?

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Life has thrown me a few lemons.

Friday I sat in my OB's waiting room after having my ultrasound only 20 minutes earlier. I was sitting there feeling sorry for myself. There I sat amoungst a young couple who were smiling at their ultrasound picture, several pregnant women and their significant others, a young to be mother with her all too young boyfriend and what I assume to be her mother, and a few older people who were most likely there for the dreaded exam.

I was alone. And it was the saddest moment of my life and I shared that moment alone. I won't get into why LW wasn't there because clearly some things are more important than being with me while my insides are being discussed. It hurt. It's resolved with him...hopefully.

My doctor said because of the severity of the endo that she is reluctant to do the hysterectomy vaginially via a scope. So that means that I will be cut. Something I wasn't preparred for. I will be cut just like a woman who gets a c-section. I'm expected to be in the hospital for 3-4 days with a 6-8 week recovery period. Thankfully I'm doing it in January while the weather is horrible so I won't feel like I have to get out and about. It will be a very lonely time as LW can't spend 6-8 weeks home from work.

I'm starting to become more okay with it, and having less 'woah is me' conversations with myself. I can't change how sick I am. I couldn't have done anything different to stop myself from getting endo. I'm following in my Mom and my oldest sister's footsteps. My Mom and my sister had hysterectomy's due to endo in their 30's. I survived longer with it, by about 2 years.

I can only pray to God for more strength. I'm warned of the menopausal symtpoms and some of those include depression. I'm going to do my best to keep myself (and my brain) active during those long 6-8 weeks until I can get back to work and find some normalcy again.

The upside is that my pain should go away. Hallaluah!

Thank you for all of your well wishes over this journey. Everyone of you have been so supportive. It means the world to me. I'm blessed in more ways that I can count.